December 20 – Beyond Avoidance What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)
What I should have done this year?
Well. I don’t use should language with myself. I know, in my heart and in my head, that for the most part I am doing the very best that I can. So I don’t beat myself up with the shoulds. What do I wish I had found a way to do this year? Yoga.
I see the yoga people and they seem to be so peaceful, so zen, so flexible, so troublingly untroubled that I feel a primal pull toward them. That… I tell myself. That’s what I want. I have always wanted to do yoga, to center myself, to disengage from all this and find a way to connect to that.
My mind needs it. But I don’t trust my body to do it.
So we shall see, in 2011, if I find a way to trust my joints, my muscles, my bones, my strength to try yoga, to find the center I always wonder about missing.